My friend saw the beauty buried inside
of me. She knew that such life wasn't something be talked about, but abundance to be lived. She didn't just discuss me like a painting under review, she led me remove the protective tarp and release my beauty into reality.
The conversation was on style. She gave me hours of her priceless advice on finding a new level of beauty. Between her words and my life was my tarp of complacency. Her words were true, but my motivation to move had to come from me alone. Turns out, it was much more about reviving me at the heart level than it was restoring me to style. Abundant life v. abundant laziness. Status quo v. brave beauty. Beauty is a choice before it's a display. I was convicted, not chastised, and called to reveal me. Let the ordinary fall and fullness thrive.
The conversation was on style. She gave me hours of her priceless advice on finding a new level of beauty. Between her words and my life was my tarp of complacency. Her words were true, but my motivation to move had to come from me alone. Turns out, it was much more about reviving me at the heart level than it was restoring me to style. Abundant life v. abundant laziness. Status quo v. brave beauty. Beauty is a choice before it's a display. I was convicted, not chastised, and called to reveal me. Let the ordinary fall and fullness thrive.
She said:
“I spent hours of my time – investing in you, being specific
with you as to exactly what you needed to do and say and all of that investment
returned void because you didn’t follow what was said. You can give excuse
after excuse – but essentially, you chose to fall back into status quo instead
of moving forward in the steps required to rise. I feel that the conversation
was a waste because you didn’t want success enough to sacrifice forward. Again,
the result was mediocre when a move was offered. You are the one who lives with
the result. Choose more….”
He said:
“I give you everything, most of all, MYSELF. All wisdom, all
worth, all words. More than enough to illuminate you and move you into the most
amazing you that I have desired and created you to be. Yet, you choose not to
be with me. You determine my words to be “advice,” as if I were a simply a
behavioral counselor that gives you guidance in your own decisions actions to
make your life “better.” When you choose not to obey My voice, you close off the
mind renewing and life transforming words that literally raise who are you to eradicate
status quo and live life to the absolutely fullest. What steals your desperation
for Me? What keeps My life from flowing in you? Do you hear and pass or seek
and find? Listen to Me. Let me release you to live passionately in My
love and fully in My life!"
In time, the desire and beauty emerged. But not
without a cost. With a beautiful friend, there was a day of “out with the old and in with the new.” There
was a trashing of old threads and collecting new clothes. With Yeshua, there was a day of
laying down distractions and rising to time in His Presence. It’s a start –
every day another start. There is still a cost, still a struggle,
still a choice, still a beauty and still a life.
This is the day. Choose life.
Enjoy Him, Michelle
mlpack777@gmail.com
8 comments:
Always with me is the words you shared with me from Brennen Manning which I have shared numerous times with others (like today speaking); "He loves us right where we're at and not where we should be." THAT IS beauty to be free and to know we are loved right where we're at and then to love others as He does for us. Thanks Michelle for the wonderful way you share your heart.
Why do we chose to live black/white/navy/beige when He offers us the multitude of Colors of His Rainbow--color of promises to be fulfilled if we will but surrender our will and take one step forward. I choose all the colors of His Love that transforms...and ask Him to paint on the canvas of my life and in my wardrobe and my Mom's jewelry! "The heavens display the Glory of God." Let's not let them have all the fun!! So glad you are writing again. Shine with Jesus, Wordsmith!
Really enjoyed reading that, thanks. Keep up the great writing!
Love your words. Love how you write.
It was good to read your thoughts again! Thank you for being my beautiful inside and out friend. Thank you for reminding me that “to choose life—to choose inner beauty” is a daily choice.
You have a gift for writing!
Beautiful writing as you share your heart and your vulnerability. God is always so patient with us. He never forces change on us. He loves you exactly where you're at...like..HUGE. but I know you know that.
You might want to lose 120 pounds.
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