Over the last couple of weeks, I have been engaged in a partial fast (based on Daniel’s fast of certain foods and drinks found in Daniel 10:2-3 to shun idolatry and focus on God). I thought I was seeking God’s presence; having no idea how much He was seeking mine. As I was blocking out certain foods, God was walling out false loves (any idol of my life). He was hedging my heart to see my Husband. He lead me to Hosea 2, where I read my life unfold.
I watched the thornbushes rise up: conversations being blocked, time being stolen, expectations being thwarted, hopes being crushed. At first, I was extremely frustrated. I began to hate the thornbushes. They were blocking my time and interactions as I desired. Then I realized: my desire, my words, my time, my expectations, my hopes. Subconsciously, it was all about me. He showed me that, subtly, my selfish desires were tempting me away from my away from time with Christ alone.
El Quanna, the God who’s Name is Jealous, (Exodus 34:14) was quite over my adultery. He wanted me to share my heart with Him. Alone. He used thornbushes to take out whatever is necessary for His Presence to be my true passion and life.
Here I wait in the wilderness for Him to speak tenderly and intimately. His name is Husband. I am His and His desire is for me. Alone. (Song of Songs 7:10). From here the Shepherd leads, loves, delights, desires, and showers me with the good and perfect gifts. When He is my heart, He removes the blinders to reveal the truth of His incredible blessings..covered in His true love.
From the wilderness to the land of Your Promise, I will not move one inch without Your presence. Nothing is worth one moment without You here with me (Exodus 33:15).
Enjoy Him, Michelle mlpack777@gmail.com
