Friday, April 8, 2011

Hedges to Husband

Therefore I will block her path with thornbushes; I will wall her in so that she cannot find her way. She will chase after her lovers but not catch them; she will look for them but not find them. Then she will say, ‘I will go back to my husband as at first, for then I was better off than now.’ Hosea 2:6-7 "Therefore I am now going to allure her; I will lead her into the wilderness and speak tenderly to her.“In that day,” declares the LORD, “you will call me ‘my husband’; you will no longer call me ‘my master.’ I will remove the names of the Baals from her lips; no longer will their names be invoked. Hosea 2:14-17

Over the last couple of weeks, I have been engaged in a partial fast (based on Daniel’s fast of certain foods and drinks found in Daniel 10:2-3 to shun idolatry and focus on God). I thought I was seeking God’s presence; having no idea how much He was seeking mine. As I was blocking out certain foods, God was walling out false loves (any idol of my life). He was hedging my heart to see my Husband. He lead me to Hosea 2, where I read my life unfold.

I watched the thornbushes rise up: conversations being blocked, time being stolen, expectations being thwarted, hopes being crushed. At first, I was extremely frustrated. I began to hate the thornbushes. They were blocking my time and interactions as I desired. Then I realized: my desire, my words, my time, my expectations, my hopes. Subconsciously, it was all about me. He showed me that, subtly, my selfish desires were tempting me away from my away from time with Christ alone. 

El Quanna, the God who’s Name is Jealous, (Exodus 34:14) was quite over my adultery. He wanted me to share my heart with Him. Alone. He used thornbushes to take out whatever is necessary for His Presence to be my true passion and life.

Here I wait in the wilderness for Him to speak tenderly and intimately. His name is Husband. I am His and His desire is for me. Alone. (Song of Songs 7:10). From here the Shepherd leads, loves, delights, desires, and showers me with the good and perfect gifts. When He is my heart, He removes the blinders to reveal the truth of His incredible blessings..covered in His true love.

From the wilderness to the land of Your Promise, I will not move one inch without Your presence. Nothing is worth one moment without You here with me (Exodus 33:15).

Enjoy Him, Michelle


Debbie Griffith said...

Thank you dear friend for another wonderful piece. It reminds me of "beauty for ashes." You are a beautiful offering to Him...seeking Him so "diligently."
Love you,

Anonymous said...

Very well written, very insightful, very sweet. Thank you!

Anonymous said...

Very well done! This made me very happy!!!

Anonymous said...

Good one michelle! LOVE the blog title.
and this is a new one on me....El Quanna, the God who’s Name is Jealous, (Exodus 34:14); thank you!
love to you

Anonymous said...

Wow, incredible!

Anonymous said...

I am discouraged as well as encouraged when I continue to find myself in the same place with more focus on my and what I want. What an inspirational writing-Thank you for sharing your thoughts and your heart-very precious stuff!!

Rhonda285 said...

I came across this blog of yours after writing on my own blog about idols. I don't know, Michelle, does the struggle ever end, this side of the veil?