Friday, September 14, 2012

Obsession

We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ. 2 Corinthians 10:5

Our conversation was on communication. By invitation, I offered my observation. And so I began: “I understand that when something comes into your mind, you shut out all else and run full steam ahead with that determined thought,” I told him. “I hope to present various options for you to consider before making decisions; but words are useless to you until you listen me. I'm not presenting thoughts to fix your circumstances necessarily; I am presenting ideas to broaden your options.”

The observation wasn't for my friend, as it turned out. It was for me.

The Holy Spirit spoke: “May I present a reminder of my healing ways, obsessed one.” “Yes, Lord,” I responded. And so He began.“When your weekend plans got completely turned around from your expectations, what did you do?” I answered: “I obsessed over it for a day or so. I was feeling quite justified in my obsession. Then I laid it on Your altar and trusted You.” He spoke again, “When you felt as if you ruined a recent job interview, what did you do?” I answered, “I obsessed over it for a day or so. I even invited friends into my obsessed thoughts. Then I laid it on Your altar and trusted You.” He spoke a third time, “Where is your history and where is your healing?” I responded in truth, “My history speaks of countless times where I become fixated on an issue until it is it resolved, either in reality or in my mind. My insecurity has brought me to run with my obsessions right into ruin. My healing has come from listening to You. My healing has come from trusting You. My healing has come from obeying You.”

Now my own words confirmed in beautiful conviction as the Holy Spirit spoke to me: “I understand that when something comes into your mind, you shut out all else and run full steam ahead with that determined thought,” He told me. “I hope to present various options for you to consider before making decisions; but My words are useless to you until you listen to Me. I'm not presenting thoughts to fix your circumstances necessarily; I am presenting ideas to help your way.”

Bring every thought into the captivity of Christ, lest I be brought under captivity of my thoughts. Every thought. Should I be obsessed with Christ, as He is obsessed with me, then my mind move for only one thought above all else: listen for His voice. Speak Lord, Your servant is listening. 


Enjoy Him, Michelle mlpack777@gmail.com

8 comments:

Rhonda285 said...

Thank you for sharing a glimpse of your beautiful faith and the insights you've gained. I read your post from two different angles. The first, your intended meaning, dealing with my own personal obsessions, and the other an obsession I think is from God.

When I feel that God has spoken to me, I become irrationally focused on doing the thing I think He has asked me to do, going forward with blinders, unwilling to take in outside information. It becomes an obsession. If I don't respond right away, however, the urge immediately dissipates and I have no desire to do it. I feel like, with very few exceptions, He's only going to tell me once and if I want to please Him or reap His blessings, I'll do it right then. Sometimes it's business/mission related, sometimes it's reaching out to someone He wants to speak to and sometimes I have no earthly clue what it's related to. And more often than not, I never find out whether it was, in fact, from God. So then, I become obsessed with whether or not it was, in fact, from God, and I can once again revert back to the original meaning and advice of your post...the healing balm from God comes when I just listen, trust and obey. Period.

Debbie Griffith said...

I don't what or why it is but I think right now this is my favorite post of yours that I remember. I think it is one of your most vulnerable ones and from the honesty and truth it speaks healing to all of us (to me) because it tells us (me) "We are not alone." It reminds us that we may not always no the "WHY?" but He is always the hope and WAY to peace. Thanks dear sister. <3
Debbie

Anonymous said...

Well that was quite a treat my friend. I read it once and then listened to the song. Then when I read it again I had a clearer understanding. Isn't it just so clever how the Holy Spirit works. Reminds of the splinter we try to take out of our brother's eye when we have a beam. But you have the gift of humility to let Him teach you like that and share with others in a way so beautifully written.
Thanks for the treat and the truth:)
Michelle

Anonymous said...

Beautiful!

Anonymous said...

Wow. Good. Honest. True.

Anonymous said...

EXCELLENT. So interesting when God uses our own words to speak to us...

Anonymous said...

Ok—were you writing this to me!!!! Sure found myself in your word – I totally understand every word the Holy Spirit gave to you for this blog. Thank you again for sharing your heart. Your words were so true – I obsess constantly –then realize that God has already planned out what I obsess over and in a much better way than my feeble brain had planned.

Anonymous said...

Honest and real, Michelle, Very nice, and food for thought.....